I decided my heart was yours, so I threw it at you in great bleeding chunks. I missed, but I know to throw underhand now. Someone out there is stanced up ready to catch me, I hope
365 days a month ago. A year did little to dull his feelings. In fact, the further away he felt from her, the more brilliantly they bloomed, flashes of crimson, gold, and sunset orange dancing in his head as he called to mind her smile, her stride, the sound of her voice. All for a single chance meeting, an hour or so, an hour among thousands and yet it was the one he clasped tighter than any to his heart. He must be sick. Something must be deeply wrong. Something inside of him twists, writhes, coils its body gleefully, thrilling at that hollow, sinking sensation in his guts, squeezing itself tight around his lungs as poison slips sweet and thick through his veins. He stares at himself in the mirror and it peers out through his eyes, burning and pulsing. Its serpentine weight in his chest forces him to imagine her body near his. How she stepped close, the hem of her shirt lifted playfully, those words, "Do you want to touch it?" slithering between her lips and pounding against his
Quick notes: -Sorry, I've been busy dealing with life and a bit of the seasonal blues. Being cold and gray is driving me mad like it does every year -I swear half of my new Watchers are dud accounts. I check everyone as they come if to see if I can find new stuff and over half seem to be lifeless accounts. Its weird.
I love some of my notes to myself. I write stupid stuff like "LOL make Cryptus magic proof to piss off Sorcar. " and " SHE CAN FUCKING READ, YOU DUMMY, SHE READ HIS NOTE. " Are my personal favorites.